Lost In Thought

I've begun to realize more and more that, while somewhat meaningful;, my life has been a total letdown. I'm more often then not lonely, I have almost no friends, and I pander away at a blog that no one will ever really read (no offense). I've begun to wonder if I really have any true hope for happiness or meaningful companionship. Though I know 16 isn't the do or die year for such things, as sadly most teens of my age do, I also realize that I'm getting no younger. I must wonder if the relationships that I have, for lack of a better word, fucked up royally  will come back to bite me. I've lost love twice. One love that I still sadly dwell on during many a somber and sleepless night.

Am I as hopeless as I believe myself to be? Will I go through this life bitter and alone? Or will some soul find something within me worth loving. I suppose only time will tell, but time has never especially smiled upon me.

Ramble, ramble, ramble

I've realized that I have NOTHING to really talk about on a blog. Such is the drawback to having quite the astronomically boring life. So I suppose I'll just type out some ramblings.

I've been going in and out of being vexed with terrible migraines. I don't know why this is, but it's beginning to become more trouble then it's worth. My parents have become increasingly hostile towards each other, which is annoying. I wish I could get out more, but not many people really care to hang out with  me anyways. I also apologize in advance for any depressed ramblings I may make in the future. Depression is a usual struggle, but it's amplified during the school year. Speaking of school, it's just as lonely/dull as it was last year. I'm getting better grades though. So I guess being lonely is an acceptable trade off? Maybe..

A Little About Me

Well this is my second blog and I can honestly say I hope I keep this one up. Shit like this keeps me sane through the insanity of my everyday life.

Now for a little background about me. I'm not the most attractive guy. Not one of those guys that has perfect hair, great facial features, or a muscle laden body. I'm actually quite nerdy to be perfectly honest. I wear glasses, I'm too smart for my own good, I'm lean, and am pretty average looking if not less than. About the only nice physical feature I have are my eyes, which are apparently a very nice shade of hazel. I'm not exactly a ladies man or a guy with a bunch of friends. I have very few friends and am not especially social for a kid my age. I like a particular girl, but she's too good for me and is being hooked up with someone else.

That's about all there is to me on the surface really. As I blog more I hope to show my deeper side. I really do hope my school year is better then last years. I know it won't be, but a guy can dream right?